Cytomegalovirus

As I watch the red dots
Slowly form on my skin
Fear washes over me and
Leaves me feeling numb

My mind starts analyzing
How am I feeling?
Do I have a fever?
Am I overly tired?

I thought the virus
Was a part of my past
A really bad dream
That I had finally woke up from

Is this a relapse?
Is my body rebelling again?
I was finally “normal”
Did I try to do too much?

My lymph nodes are swollen
Just like last spring
The signs that I ignored
Until finally I collapsed

Now I am afraid
Afraid that the virus
That put my life on hold
Will do it again